Cliches Led Me To My Passion

Every day I started my job search with gusto and positivity. That attitude, albeit hard to maintain since each job description made me want to rip apart my laptop and suffocate myself.  BUT I would continue to scroll through job listings reminding myself of the importance of finding a job that I loved.  I knew I would search until I found my purpose, my calling.  I would read inspiring stories and quotes but they only frustrated me more.  I was tired of reading success stories of other people "just like me" who stumbled upon a million dollar idea.  I was tired of reading inspiring quotes that were obviously meant for other people- not me.  Each article, post etc was peppered with cliches that were meant to be uplifting, but in reality only irritated me more.   I was reading these stories with a cynical and jealous heart.  My jealousy was being fueled by my frustration with myself for not having the courage to go out on a limb or the knowledge to know what I loved.  At the height of my bitterness, I decided that even if I didn't know exactly what I loved to do I knew what I despised: another ho-hum job that required a lot of hours with little rewards.  I could not go back to that life. At that moment I made a promise to myself to chose something else.   Making the decision to never go back to a 9 to 5'er gave me freedom.  Freedom to think outside the box and to do something that I've never done before.  I began searching for a business ideas.  Truth be told, I've always been searching for a business idea but never really made the commitment to believe that I could actually start my own business.  I thought that people started business after they came up with an idea- not vice versa.  But that was how I began, first believing that I would start my business then one day, just as all the others had promised- it hit me.  I would help small businesses with their marketing.  I would do all the things that I wanted to do for a large corporation except that I would do it on my own terms.  I would help businesses grow their business.  It was perfect!  I could help people, socialize with people and call my own day.  I became scared as shit mixed with an excitement that I hadn't felt in my professional life in a long time.  Their was hope for me yet.  And to think, I scoffed at that Believe It and Achieve It article...